Shh!Sherman
the observations of daily occurrences and the narration of my mundane life
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i am fairly fair, i like to listen to music a lot. all sorts of music ranging from classical all the way to metal. i am a fickle person and i am quick to anger but quick to forgive as well.
this blog is to entertain myself and people like me, who are gonna be damn bored after jan/feb intake of army boys.
i hate aggressive ah bengs who always try to pick a fight. and romantics who don't really care much for love.
i believe in peace, love, music, and seizing the day.
i hope the contents of this blog will not offend people yup tts all!
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Saturday, April 5, 2014 @ 1:34 AM
what a letdown everyone HAHAHA.
i'm sorry i said i'd do the posting everyday. then i see my views going up because you all are probably expecting it and it's not coming.
well.. it's not that i don't want to post anything, nor that i'm not doing much, i just cant make anything interesting out of it.
so basically the past few days have been voice classes, gym sessions, and nights spent out with yeeying, friends, and a bbq just tonight. i think i read somewhere that the only way to succeeding in something is to just focus on one thing. well in this case i'm not really focusing on just one thing and though quite the common sense, as most good advice tends to be, filling my plate with less things does show more results.
i'm currently experiencing the i-need-a-new-blog phase. Maybe i will get one. and then properly publicise the blog. hmm. or maybe not. i'm not sure. gah.
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i'm sorry i said i'd do the posting everyday. then i see my views going up because you all are probably expecting it and it's not coming.
well.. it's not that i don't want to post anything, nor that i'm not doing much, i just cant make anything interesting out of it.
so basically the past few days have been voice classes, gym sessions, and nights spent out with yeeying, friends, and a bbq just tonight. i think i read somewhere that the only way to succeeding in something is to just focus on one thing. well in this case i'm not really focusing on just one thing and though quite the common sense, as most good advice tends to be, filling my plate with less things does show more results.
i'm currently experiencing the i-need-a-new-blog phase. Maybe i will get one. and then properly publicise the blog. hmm. or maybe not. i'm not sure. gah.
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Monday, March 31, 2014 @ 6:19 PM
so...
an update on life. i've ord-ed and moved on to civilian life happily. as u can see, there has been no ord post anywhere on my social media platforms, that's because i can't really think of any appropriate thing to say in a succinct manner that will express my feelings well.
in the past few weeks, i've applied for a placing in SUTD, awaiting for confirmation, and i failed my TP. that is another story i would not like to elaborate on, so please don't talk to me about it. it basically involves mounting a particular curb when coming out from vertical parking and next test date is in june. if you're smiling now because i said i dont want to elaborate on it but i still did, that's because i know you'll still ask me in real life so now you dont need to ask anything. if you're smiling now because u think it's funny i failed driving, u better hope u pass already if not karma will make u fail also, asshole.
so i've basically been slacking around and telling myself i should not waste any time, but i still do. u know how u always think about all the things to do when you're free when you're not? like
"if i had holidays i will totally go exercise every morning"
"sian if now free can pick up guitar"
the list goes on. but then holidays come and you just eat, watch shows, and sleep a lot.
THEN, today it dawned on me that assuming i get into sutd (their school year starts earlier), i only have 35 days left to do whatever i want. homg. so i've decided to start accounting my activities on this place and hopefully will work harder to make it productive.
my version of 100happydays i guess. but since i'm hipster that's too mainstream for me.
with reference to the book "the happiness project", this is going to be the kickstart of my happiness project. which hopefully involves a lot more learning and fresh experiences etc.
stay tuned for more :)
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an update on life. i've ord-ed and moved on to civilian life happily. as u can see, there has been no ord post anywhere on my social media platforms, that's because i can't really think of any appropriate thing to say in a succinct manner that will express my feelings well.
in the past few weeks, i've applied for a placing in SUTD, awaiting for confirmation, and i failed my TP. that is another story i would not like to elaborate on, so please don't talk to me about it. it basically involves mounting a particular curb when coming out from vertical parking and next test date is in june. if you're smiling now because i said i dont want to elaborate on it but i still did, that's because i know you'll still ask me in real life so now you dont need to ask anything. if you're smiling now because u think it's funny i failed driving, u better hope u pass already if not karma will make u fail also, asshole.
so i've basically been slacking around and telling myself i should not waste any time, but i still do. u know how u always think about all the things to do when you're free when you're not? like
"if i had holidays i will totally go exercise every morning"
"sian if now free can pick up guitar"
the list goes on. but then holidays come and you just eat, watch shows, and sleep a lot.
THEN, today it dawned on me that assuming i get into sutd (their school year starts earlier), i only have 35 days left to do whatever i want. homg. so i've decided to start accounting my activities on this place and hopefully will work harder to make it productive.
my version of 100happydays i guess. but since i'm hipster that's too mainstream for me.
with reference to the book "the happiness project", this is going to be the kickstart of my happiness project. which hopefully involves a lot more learning and fresh experiences etc.
stay tuned for more :)
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Thursday, March 13, 2014 @ 2:32 AM
on sleepless nights like this, i lie on my bed and feel my heart thumping against my chest, and then i simply wonder.
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Tuesday, February 18, 2014 @ 10:18 PM
So i was watching a random TED video, and the speaker suggested that we should not strive to work well so we become happy, but instead, strive to be happy so that we will work well.
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Some suggestions on how to be happier:
1. list out 3 things at the end of each day to be grateful about
2. journal a positive experience that day
3. pass the joy on with random acts of kindness that can include telling someone something nice
in view of my long temporary break from army i finally have time to do wanker things like that. so it's all cool.
1. wisdom tooth operation today was absolutely painless (at least during the op)
2. had a good meetup with yeeying today
3. for having a loving mother who is showing a lot of unnecessary concern for my teeth
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Monday, February 10, 2014 @ 3:51 AM
Well, I've just touched down from Taipei to Singapore. It's been a great trip, and a good way to end off my two year army journey.
This post won't be about the trip, you can ask me about it and we'll chat and catch up :) This post is more the snaggy 3am sort of post about life haha.
I remember thinking to myself when i was thirteen, about how i felt like i was old enough, and that i finally understood the world for all it was and all it held. i'm glad to say i've learnt so much more in this time, and am finally aware of how much i do not understand.
I find myself forming opinions on issues that i never concerned myself with. I've always looked at myself as a person that you couldn't really put a finger to, not to say short of personality, but lacking in attachment or commitment to any matter. I'm still struggling to be comfortable with seeing myself do that. I just get so irritated with people and find most of their opinions expressed (especially those who are confident and oh so sure of their opinions) as being pretentious, misinformed, or skewed, and lacking in consideration, that i see the forming of such an opinion as the embodiment of an ugly and stupid self centeredness.
And i think that's my fear, i fear becoming the very thing i hate.
-breathe out- okay moving on.
i'm starting to pick back up on listening to indie acoustic songs again after a 2 year break, not sure how long that's going to last but for now i'm enjoying it. If you have not heard the song playing here, this is a cover of love more by sharon van etten.
i'm about to leave the army and i'm just excited and nervous about life. I guess that's the thing about youth, your hope in life hasn't been crushed just yet, and you feel like maybe, just maybe, you can make something out of your life. something good, something really, really good.
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This post won't be about the trip, you can ask me about it and we'll chat and catch up :) This post is more the snaggy 3am sort of post about life haha.
I remember thinking to myself when i was thirteen, about how i felt like i was old enough, and that i finally understood the world for all it was and all it held. i'm glad to say i've learnt so much more in this time, and am finally aware of how much i do not understand.
I find myself forming opinions on issues that i never concerned myself with. I've always looked at myself as a person that you couldn't really put a finger to, not to say short of personality, but lacking in attachment or commitment to any matter. I'm still struggling to be comfortable with seeing myself do that. I just get so irritated with people and find most of their opinions expressed (especially those who are confident and oh so sure of their opinions) as being pretentious, misinformed, or skewed, and lacking in consideration, that i see the forming of such an opinion as the embodiment of an ugly and stupid self centeredness.
And i think that's my fear, i fear becoming the very thing i hate.
-breathe out- okay moving on.
i'm starting to pick back up on listening to indie acoustic songs again after a 2 year break, not sure how long that's going to last but for now i'm enjoying it. If you have not heard the song playing here, this is a cover of love more by sharon van etten.
i'm about to leave the army and i'm just excited and nervous about life. I guess that's the thing about youth, your hope in life hasn't been crushed just yet, and you feel like maybe, just maybe, you can make something out of your life. something good, something really, really good.
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Wednesday, November 27, 2013 @ 9:38 PM
Well friends, it seems like i'm back here again.
Update on life: travel from paya lebar to joo koon EVERYDAY (still better than staying in)
morning nightmare
Reached paya lebar train station at 5.56am in the morning and made the first mistake of the day. Not hanging on for delayed gratification. Let me first explain how seating works on the train,
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Update on life: travel from paya lebar to joo koon EVERYDAY (still better than staying in)
morning nightmare
Reached paya lebar train station at 5.56am in the morning and made the first mistake of the day. Not hanging on for delayed gratification. Let me first explain how seating works on the train,
As you can see, i'm in the rare mood for blogging, and my strong urge to express myself has driven me to drawing this shit on paint. It is no mean feat, so spare me the criticisms.
As shown, the corner 4 seats are the 1st class seats.
1. dim lighting
2. glass panel thing/ head rest
3. everyone there is sleeping, it's just lovely
If those seats are taken and you're desperate, go for the shameful seats.
1. 4 corners of the bad side
2. glass panel thing
3. have to withstand glares of annoyance from entitled 30-40 year old dicks
Then, if everything really gone, bo pian just take shit seats or stand lor.
1. no headrest
2. damn bright
So, at 5.56am the doors open and the first class seats were all taken. In my drowsy state, i lost the battle for delayed gratification and decided to just board that train and take the shit seats instead of waiting for the next train which might have first class seats.
Result? A very frustrating hour of sitting there (u see my sad face in the picture) with my head rolling about cos there's no bloody side head rest thing. Freaking waiting there like a vulture to see if any one from first class or shameful gets off then i can hurry up go there.
The green smiley is this recruit who managed to vulture his way into getting 1st class halfway through and i gave him such a killer stare he had this fearful face like he couldnt fall asleep cos i might stomp him.
THEN THE WORST ONE CAME. freaking shameful seat just across me the guy got off, so i was gg to cross over to take the seat, this 30ish dude practically LUNGED forward to get the seat. I was telling myself, hell, he wants it that bad go ahead la, he prob needs his sleep. THE BASTARD STARTED READING HIS NEWSPAPER. OMG CAN YOU IMAGINE. For like 40 mins i was sitting there fantasizing if i had the glass panel thing to rest on, the bastard just sat there with this fucking i'm-reading-some-serious-shit-here face.
You can't even imagine what his face was like okay OMG. and i refuse to try to draw it.
............ Okay maybe you all can't relate to how i feel, but it was a really bad morning.
You don't just go sit on first class or shameful seats and not sleep man. really. at 6 in the morning. thats not how you do it brah. it's cruel.
i guess i'm kinda happy my life's problems have dwindled down to this trivial sort of bs haha.
Okay end of rant. btw the song is nice huh! credits to yy for recommending. I love it.
on another note.
one month to christmas!!!
To the people who are going to ord in like a week or something, go fuck yourselves.
To the May batch, may we enjoy our share of christmas holidays, accumulated leaves and offs, new year and chinese new year hols, and ORD like bosses. Peace out.
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Thursday, July 25, 2013 @ 9:54 PM
i want to have a beautiful, weathered voice, to show you how i feel by singing a haunting song.
i want to know the right moves to make, to step with strength and grace, to show you how i feel through a dance that will shake your soul.
i want to connect my mind to your mind and my heart to your heart, and channel an imprint of this feeling to you.
But try as i might, i don't have any of that, and i don't know how to let you see it. How to let you understand this feeling i feel on such nights, and that is why i understand how there are so many people in this world, but i will never truly be not alone, because this feeling is something i can see in my mind and feel in my heart, but something i can't express.
it is something beautiful yet sad, magical and nostalgic, bittersweet and elusive, like the whiff of a scent before it gets taken by the wind.
and then its gone.
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i want to know the right moves to make, to step with strength and grace, to show you how i feel through a dance that will shake your soul.
i want to connect my mind to your mind and my heart to your heart, and channel an imprint of this feeling to you.
But try as i might, i don't have any of that, and i don't know how to let you see it. How to let you understand this feeling i feel on such nights, and that is why i understand how there are so many people in this world, but i will never truly be not alone, because this feeling is something i can see in my mind and feel in my heart, but something i can't express.
it is something beautiful yet sad, magical and nostalgic, bittersweet and elusive, like the whiff of a scent before it gets taken by the wind.
and then its gone.
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